♂ⒾⓂⓅⒺⓇⒻⒺⒸⓉ ⒼⒾⓇⓁ♂: I Just Don't Understand

Its funny huh. Just because of his dream, he returned and leave me one more time.

After three years lost contact with my ex-lover, he returned to find me just because of his dreams.

Please listen to this song while you read my story. ♡

After breaking up with him in the past three years, I have a couple two times and it still failed because I always compare them with my first lover. Yeah, it's my fault. It's true, the first love is the greatest love and I can't deny it.

At the beginning of the year 2013, I have my Industrial Training at Kuching, Sarawak. I can't deny that I really wanted to see him because almost two years of my time I spent in Kuantan, Pahang. It's far from Kuching, Sarawak. I know he was in Kuching, Sarawak at that time. The last time I saw him was three years ago. Every time I walk in the city of Kuching, I keep hoping that I can bump into him.

I ever once saw him at a shopping mall, but I don't dare to see him for a long time, then he just disappear like that. From that day, I always dreamed about him and my sister was telling me that my mother had a chat with her father. I start to feel nervous.

After a few weeks passed, I'm just on my Facebook and inadvertent I found his Facebook. Then I feel more nervous and scared.

On 28th May 2013, he add me as a friend on Facebook. I'm confused, I don't know I should approve him or not. Then I told my friend about this and she told me to approve him. After I approve him, he started to chatting with me.

He started to talk about our past, talk about our sweet memories, he told me he found me because he dreamed about me on 19th May 2013, he also told me his girlfriend seems hiding something from him and he told me I was his first true love . Indirectly he began to strengthen my love for him and I am falling in love for the second times with the same person and we returned again.

But...

It only lasted for 9 days...

He was telling me that he has a girlfriend.
My heart broke a bit...

After that he tells me...
His family really like that girl...
My heart is broken more and more...

And suddenly he says we can't be together because he want to study and I'm still studying. I ask him why can't be together while we are studying.

Then he scolding me...............

I really hate it when people scolding me, but I try to think positive. May be he wanted to make me hate him, but sorry because I can't hate him.

On 6th May 2013, for me it ended.
It's just ended like that and I just don't understand. I really really really don't understand at all.
And now I try to heal my own heart.....